It's been a long while.........
a long while since i blogged........

well.. perhaps laziness has taken over me
mani things have happened
life has been good.. work is fine... boss is nice..
still.. life is never a bed of roses...
when there are ups, there will be downs..

how affected am i? i do not know...
i guess i'm fine and dainty (dainty reminds me of forrest gump movie)
y dwell when it gets you no where...
permanent or prolong dwelling is detrimental..

juz read SZ's blog...
am glad somehow i'm still mentioned

well... it's about making the effort..
how true
i never intend to draw a line..
i dunno why some drew a line..
yet some care still..
which is heartwarming

perhaps i din try enough?
perhaps i feel out?
perhaps the group is so exclusive that i dunno how to be in again after such a long while..
i can't do it alone..
i always tot its easier for a group to welcome an individual
instead of an individual tryin to blend in..

not tryin to find excuses..
never meant to find anyway

if you look closely enough..
i'm still the same old rene
one that needs encouragement to feel courageous enough to make more efforts

despite that..
for those who knows me and understands..
thanks!

enough of this,
i dunno if i sound coherent..
not tryin to be emo or am emo here

anyhow.. flyin soon
both exciting and scary..

for those who care enough to CURSE me and giving me advices..
really warms my heart..
you know who you are
with you all around..
nothing else matters
or perhaps..
give me some time to think where to begin again......

Rene.Rushi
7:56 AM